Broken Heart

There’s a special place I go,
Deep inside my mind,
To soothe away the sorrows,
From outside I find,

The tears will cease to flow,
As deeper within I seek,
The meadow, and the tree,
The flowers and the creek,

That flows continuous and fresh,
As the wind blows through,
To swing under my tree,
I’ve only shown to few.

Since the time I was child,
This is my place of peace,
A serenity that no other,
Will ever be able to decrease.

The sweetness of the flowers,
The water sounds to lull,
Deeper inside my mind,
The swing has it’s pull,

To draw me ever closer,
And wrap around my soul,
To ease my breaking heart,
Has always been it’s goal.

My swing within the tree,
Forever and a day,
To find my peace and serenity,
My special place will stay.

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There are days I wish I had no emotions at all.  I would like to feel numb to all outside influences.  I have always wondered why we were given such emotions as a breaking heart, and also wondered that when others feel this, do you feel like you are dying inside?  I do.  I feel like I am dying and the tears flow endlessly, then one day you wake up and the pain is not so bad, and you are able to function somewhat normally again, and as time goes by the pain lessons.  Sometimes, even anger sets in for a brief period, but for me that doesn’t last long.  I suppose it’s all a process a person has to go through in order to get past a certain time in life.  I know everyone is unique and every persons experience with a broken heart and the process they go through will be different.  I know my process, and though this particular situation may take a bit longer for me to resolve, I do have my hopes and dreams, although they seem so far into the future that I can not see them, yet I know they are there. 

~ by sequesteredsoul on March 24, 2009.